I feel as though I walk through life blindly. When I saw the prompt for the word BLINDLY it hit me like a ton of bricks. Ever since I was a child I have cared blindly, loved blindly, and shared blindly. Where did it get me and what have I accomplished from it? Honestly, nothing but hurt and pain.
Of course I have my parents and children who are always there for me and I am eyes wide open with them. But ever person in my life that I have crossed paths with has caught me blindly.
I have cared too hard, to the point that I feel as if I should be cared for equally. I know deep down that is not possible. Not everyone is the same. Nor does everyone know how to care the same way.
I have love WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY TOOOOOOOOOOOOO HARD! Again, I always feel as though I deserve reciprocated love from everyone in the same amount at the same time and all times.
I have shared too much of my past. This has always left me vulnerable with others. This is something that for what ever reason gets brought back up and thrown in my face. Good or bad…
I want to thank you for posting this prompt. I need to think about going forward with my life being less vulnerable and a little more receptive.